Me And My Facinating Life

I have no time for life. Period.

Current Mood: stressed

And yet I still don't feel like saying much here.

Current Mood: blah

The end.

Why is the blue dude crying because it is bored? Seems an odd match of action to emotion.

Current Mood: bored

Rumors suck.

Even when they're true.

Current Mood: annoyed

I finally know the whole story--the final word.

The game is over. There's no ambiguity to play at any more--or hide behind.

And somehow...somehow, I haven't died from the knowledge. Yet.

Current Mood: satisfied

It's such a great story.

But I can't figure out who I could possibly tell it to who wouldn't judge me horribly for it.

Somehow, somewhere along the line, I got lost in this game. And now I don't know what I'm playing for anymore.

Current Mood: confused

So Sr. Davis's question for that one was, "What annoys Erin the most?"

Rebecca answers Pride and Prejudice.

Sr Davis answer was "Everything".

Beautiful.

I love how I made it as a freaking question in the spanish review we did today. Pretty cool....yeah.

In some ways I'm sad today is the last day of classes, since I won't be seeing my friends for a while... However, I hate school and classes, so on that account I'm not sorry. Oh, yes, and the rumors that are flying about me are getting pretty tiring, and I'm sick of some of my friends treating me really oddly and occasionally dropping a snide comment (which I have yet to figure out if they know that I know perfectly well what they're commenting on). I'm hoping, come fall, they might grow up just a little.

Current Mood: such a mixture of emotions

Another rare entry for Erin...

Ahhhhh.

I'm freaking upset.

Don't ask why, because its a really messed up reason.

But I just lost...like...my life. I finished something I've been working on for 6 months and yeah. It kinda feels really weird. To have been working on something for that long, and then suddenly its done.

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I'm done.

I can't believe it.

....

Current Mood: indescribable

So...just randomly (because I thought it was pretty funny)...I took a Pessimism quiz yesterday at lunch. Take your guesses now as to what my score was...

The scoring system was something like:
above 10: very optimistic
7-9: optimistic
4-6: middle of the road
1-3: quite pessimistic
0 and below: very pessimistic.

Alright. What do you think I scored?

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I got a -11.

Yeah.

I'm way down there! :D

Current Mood: blah

Clearly, I've been oh so missed.

There is nothing really for me to say here, and there hasn't been for a long time. There's something really stupid that's been kinda annoying me, but I can't really bring myself to post about it (aside from private posts) just because it is SO STUPID.

My life is stupid.

I wish I could just skip this week--and skip right to vacation.

I have a essay due tomorrow in fucking Spanish about politics. And yeah, so far, I'm about 1/4 of the way down the page--it's supposed to be a page, double spaced. Short, yes, but I'm struggling tremendously as to what I should write.

Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Current Mood: anxious

I'm not going to go into the reasons why.

But it is.

Current Mood: amused

Tomorrow I've got nothing. Yes, school. But none of this ridiculous frantic make-up an English essay that totally isn't even accurate based on the books we read (I'm kinda hoping for creativity points--and not an F because I made up my evidence for my thesis...), or a hectic two day APUSH test.

That class. I just can't even find words for it.

Actually, I think the best description of that class I heard, was from Jess today.

"Yeah, I heard seniors talking about how its a great class and all, but afterward, you never want to hear the words "Us History" again."

Pretty accurate. I know, by the end of the year, I will never want to hear those words again.

dsfnjksndfjdnsafjkndskjnfjknskjfnjksdndf.

That class is just such a killer. Do not even try to compare what you are in. Because it doesn't compare. Ever. And it never will (until you get to college)

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But its over now. *big breath*

Well, at least for now.

MY little blue emotion-dude doesn't look like he's relieved... Actually, he looks kinda pissed off--and worried at the same time.

APUSH me off a cliff!

No. I'm not going to talk about that class anymore.

Current Mood: relieved

I'm in rather the same mood as when I posted my ridiculous endless dots. Though highly entertaining (because I'm so psychotic, I laughed through the ENTIRE thing...) I'm not about to do it again, since it made scrolling down to see comments quasi-impossible, since my computer kept freezing up on me.

Then again, I'm not surprised.

So instead, there's this entry. So lovely--about nothing.

Because there's nothing for me to say.

I've got a stupid in class english essay next week, and I'm got an even stupider, fucking TWO DAY Steege test. That class really kills me. Alot.

A fun weekend ahead for me--involving tons of work that I should be doing--and me trying to find numerous creative ways to avoid it, since I don't have anything at all actually planned for the weekend. (Driver's Ed is over...not that I'm particularly sorry about that, though...)

It still gave me 3 hours of time wasted and made doing no homework on Saturday a much easier task.

Still, I've got to ask: why am I working so hard just to avoid the work, when it'd be probably easier to just do it...

I can't believe I've written this much about absolutely nothing in this entry.

Current Mood: rather talkative, apparently

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Current Mood: ..............................

I'm not entirely sure why, but no one seems to be posting here as much as they used to. Whether its winter-blues, or just outgrowing rambling about life on the internet, or everyone's life is just exceedingly boring right now (like mine)...I don't know.

I do know that its screwing up my ability to use reading peoples' entries as a procrastination tool.

Mind you, I myself haven't posted in a few weeks now, so I probably shouldn't be talking.

Anyway. I don't really have much to say. As I said above, my life is really quite boring right now. I've got nothing to talk about.

Current Mood: bored

For anyone unsure, that was complete and utter sarcasm.

I hate my family. I hate my sickness. In the end, I rather hate myself.

Thanksgiving has made me terribly bitter. I'm getting dragged off to New Jersey to celebrate a damn holiday I don't even believe in. There is nothing I'm thankful for--and if anything, the best thing for me is anyone who treats me half-way decently (meaning friends). Shouldn't I then be celebrating the holiday with them instead of celebrating with what I'm LEAST thankful for?

I don't know.

Maybe there is just something wrong with my head like my parents keep telling me.

I guess I don't know. I don't know anything anymore, really, and I have finally given up trying. I'll just continue my stumbling through the fog in hopes that one day I stumble into a clearing.

Current Mood: irritated

But I've got nothing to say really.

Listening to everyone talking about the musical last night got a little annoying after a while. I think it would have been more annoying if I'd tried out and not made it. Though not trying out has been a bit difficult, in the end, I survived, and it'll only get better as I get more used to it. Yeah. I'm pretty much giving up performing--for the most part. I'm still going to my dance classes, still going to be in chorus...but no more PC certainly.

Of course, I never fit in there anyway. Not shown in a better example than last night at Cabaret where that whole crew was dancing and Alexis and I just sat on the counter and watched and kinda looked at each other and raised our eyebrows.

The main question, though, still does remain. I'm not an athlete. I'm not a performer. I'm not an intellectual. So exactly what am I?

Current Mood: nothing to say

I'd just like to quickly qualify something.

In case anyone read that incredibly long description of Cabaret and decided I was very bitchy and self absorbed in that I was insulting those acts or something, I'd just like to say that I wasn't at all saying I am better--or could do better. I was only stating my opinions on the acts.

Its what critics do--complain about how bad something was--but they probably can't do better. (they're critics, after all, not actors, writers, directors or whatever they're criticizing...)



And I am SO tired from Cabaret last night. (well, that combined with my sickness that makes me tired all the time anyway) I really hope to try to leave early tonight--like soon after Concert Choir sings maybe.

At least I'll only have to survive two days of school this week...

Current Mood: half asleep

Am I a pessimist? Hell yes. Fill it in if you want to, but I won't hate you if you don't. I just tried it (not about myself, of course, I'm not skitzo or something)--it takes a while and gets a little difficult...

Four things you wonder about me
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Three things you like about me
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3.

Two things you don't like about me
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2.

My best feature
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Two things you want to do with me
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2.

One word that describes me
1.

One question for me
1.

Don't mind my amazingly odd entries I keep posting. I think I'm going slightly insane or something.

I'm just so frustrated with everything right now.

Current Mood: crazy